My doc said her machine isn't good enough to do an u/s this early, so I have an appt at the hospital at 2. I'm so nervous :-/ Just wanted to keep u posted.

My doctors appointment is tomorrow at 11:50 am! I'm nervous, but cautiously optimistic. The bleeding stopped for now so that makes me more confident. Please pray that I see a healthy lil peanut with a strong heartbeat <3 I can't take anything less...

Only 12 days until we walk for March of Dimes! Anyone still interested in donating click here: http://marchforbabies.org/teammackenzienoelle We are one of the top 6 teams in our area but we want to be #1 :) Go Team Mackenzie Noelle!!! <3

Made a call to my dr's office today and spoke with someone on call. There are traces of blood in my discharge (sorry, tmi). It's not always there and it's minimal but I'm still scared. My appointment wednesday can't come soon enough!!

The digital test says "Pregnant" :) I'm too nervous to be excited, but please pray this time is a happy ending. And don't post about it on my Facebook please :) I won't tell IRL people for a while!

Faint or Invisible

So here's the deal...I've taken two pregnancy tests in the last couple of days and both times there was this extremely faint pink line. When I say faint...I mean FAINT. At first I was sure I was just willing it to appear, but then I showed my husband and he saw it too but even he wasn't convinced of what it meant.

********UPDATE: Per a comment on this post I am posting pictures of the test for your scrutiny. Let me know what you think...*******************

Today I called my doctor per all of your suggestions to get a blood test and the appointment lady told me they "don't typically make those types of appointments" and that "the doctor will probably want to see you." So they wouldn't let me schedule an appointment to come in for a blood test until they talked to my doctor and got her "ok." Which is insanely stupid and I swear *if* I am pregnant...and it's ectopic...they'll be sorry. I am trying to catch this early if I am pregnant to make sure it's not ectopic. I only have one tube left and I can't afford to lose it too.

I still haven't started my period...I'm 4-5 days late. My boobs still hurt and my lower back is starting to hurt, too. Hell, I'm not even sure if you can feel symptoms this soon. I ovulated on the 25th of March. Honestly I feel like I am pregnant but I'm a little scared to say that and then be wrong because I will feel stupid. I really want to be pregnant...don't we all. I'm planning to take a digital test tomorrow to see if that will be more clear, lol. I've spent a lot of money on pregnancy tests lately. My co-worker is talking to me like I'm insane, but honestly...once you've lost two babies...even one baby...getting pregnant is like tunnel vision and the waiting is unbearable.

PS - Sorry for all the short posts. When I post something short it's because I'm doing it off my phone and it only allows a few sentences or else it posts each part of it separately. Stupid, I know.

PSS - Anyone feeling generous please visit my March of Dimes site http://marchforbabies.org/teammackenzienoelle to donate. We've raised a lot already, but I've personally only raised $130 according to my numbers and you have to raise $200 to receive a free shirt :) Technically I've raised closer to $285 but instead of donating on my personal page some people donated on the team page which doesn't calculate into my numbers. Anyways, this is a great cause and any amount helps. The walk is on April 24th and I promise to post pics of the team (of 30!!) in our super cute Team Mackenzie Noelle shirts :)

Seriously. I'm going crazy. My period was due yesterday and it hasn't shown up yet but the preg test was negative yesterday. Today my boobs are killing me which has only ever happened the 2 times I've been preggo, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up...